here’s a few things that i realize as i grow up;

1. To be a control-freak is tiring, because life is never at your control. There are surprises, some are not good ones. 

2. Feelings are not the friendliest of friends. 

3. Dreams are hard to achieve. and at times when you’re somewhere around 20’s, you’ll be confused as to what your dream is

4. you may spend your whole 24 hours to contemplate and yet realize you have done absolutely nothing.

5. Your hard works may fail you, your expectations may disappoint you, your love may go to waste. Continuing to be a positive-thinking individual is a target that is very hard to acquire.

6. life might seem gloomy and dark, everything and i mean everything can and will act against you.

7. What goes around doesn’t necessarily comes around in the speed you are expecting it to.

8. Your life might seem seriously ordinary, and this is what i found to be the most difficult of all.

But time and time again i was also reminded that;

No power of hell, no scheme of men can ever pluck me from His hand.

and for Him, and He is alone, i am thankful :)

Come what may.

169 May my cry come before you, Lord; give me understanding according to your word. 170 May my supplication come before you; deliver me according to your promise. 171 May my lips overflow with praise, for you teach me your decrees. 172 May my tongue sing of your word, for all your commands are righteous. 173 May your hand be ready to help me, for I have chosen your precepts. 174 I long for your salvation, Lord, and your law gives me delight. 175 Let me live that I may praise you, and may your laws sustain me. 176 I have strayed like a lost sheep. Seek your servant, for I have not forgotten your commands. amen.

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Hey, wassup all, hope everything is great. Im writing this as a bachelor haha, not that its important for you to know, but it feels nice to say that after a long absence, at least theres a sgnificant change in my life. I am not yet officialy graduated til saturday, but believe me, im a legit bachelor of social and political sciences.
Now, now, since this is my page, i guess its nly fair for me to write whats been happening so far..

I am a valedictorian. Which is cool for my parents, as well as shocking. The first word that came out of my dad’s mouth was a statement of disbelief. Considering the fact that i was indeed not the most dilligent person, it is only sensible for him to get shocked, i was also shocked. I guess God is always full of surprises, He doesnt change.

In the meanwhile, i am also trying to live a healthier life style.. Off course it was induced by the desire to be skinny, but as the time passes i gave up the yearn and aiming for just a healthier mind and body. So i do some pilates, gym, swimming, and also learn to savor every bits of food that i eat. The secret is to actually ‘taste’ the food. I was a fast eater, so it wouldnt take long for me o chew and swallow, but then i read this book from an indian writer (as reccomended by raja) and she explained how human often neglect the pleasure of food itself. Thus, we also neglect the inner voice that tell us whether or not we are actually fulfilled or if we still need some amount of energy from foods. The book was awesome, it approaches diet through a healthy life style. So, i may eat, in fact i must eat every two hours, but i must also taste and feel the food. In the beginning i ate with my hands as suggested, without people’s disturbance (no chitchatting) or reading books (i do this oh so often) and believe me not, it actually worked. The food I eat taste better, and it also hinder you from eating unhealthy food. When i ate fried chicken, i actually taste the oil and it was yucky on the other hand mangos, apples, and other fresh food taste much yummi-er. Also when im full, my body really resist me from eating more food. Its a good feeling, i feel lighter and happier. The book did explain about ayuverda and all other hollistic spiritual kind of things, but that part was written mostly in Hindhi, so yeah, i have no idea what the writer was talking about. But all in all, the english part was a good guru for those who want to enjoy life in healthier manner.

On a different note, i am now officially a job seeker. Well not really an active one, just the one who trusts the flow and just go with it. I have send applications to one company only, and i must say i am excited to see the result.. Its a lie if i declared i have no expectation whatsoever, but i try to keep it minimal. Que sera Sera.

And thats life so far, a scary long winding road of adventure lies ahead. Im just trying o stay as positive as possible and trust the One who loves me so. It’ll be fine, as the future is guaranteed.
Hope your life is even more exciting than mine ;)

Dear You,

I can not simply put in words just how proud i am at you today. When i saw you up on that stage, saw the video of you and your friends in China, i saw the man that three years back sat together with me in a conference who was determined and yet somehow clueless changed for the better.

First time i met you, we were both very young, and somewhat very different. You’ve always known what you wanted, and i was the one who enjoyed to swim following the flow. We debated about life, we debated about how to achieve the impossible, and i always remember that the highlight of our day was when we talk about our dreams.. I remember how your eyes lit up when you said you want to buy a camaro and park it in front of a mall. I remember how excited you were when you told me you want to buy a cool, criminal looking dog to guard your house. I remember the way you insisted that you want to be the president of indonesia. But the one thing i remember the most is the way you explained to me your longing of financial freedom and freedom of time. Your dream to spend as much time in the future with your future family. Today you proved that you are one step closer in fulfilling it.

In the course of this funny and obnoxious relationship, i did not only witness a boyfriend who’s trying to figure out what life is all about.. I witnessed my boyfriend became a man. I witnessed the thoughts of future fullfiled. I witnessed the results of perseverance, endurance, and hard work. I witnessed a man who was once filled with pride became a man who is humble and care about others, for this i am ever so thankful.

Time is one mysterious fellow and we can never expect where we will be some times after today, wherever i am or wherever you are, let us remember today. Because today we are finally able to raise our glass to those smirks and sneers that said ‘you cannot do it’, we can raise our glass to the saturday nights we missed, we can raise our glass to the fights, the tears, the sweats, the faithful and yet unwanted companies in our relationship. You’ve made it through the storms my dear, you have succeded.

3 years a go i sat next to a boy who wanted the world. Today i know that boy is a man.. And he’s getting very close :)
I love that man with all my heart
-abby

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